It has been only 11 days, and what should I say about it? It is already over. I guess I should work hard next year in 2026, haha. Nah, I’m just kidding. 2025 has been great so far, but already with many ups and downs.
On the first day in 2025, I had a major breakthrough in my trading model. That performance was never seen before, but the win rate is still just about 50ish. However, it works decent well in many tickers even those not moving a lot or going down. The thing is it is pretty neutral or balanced, if you buy NVDA, you can earn quite a lot just by holding. My model cannot beat that yet, but even if it is going down like SQQQ, the model can profit. Those ones you probably should never hold at all.
Funny enough, I couldn’t reproduce that for more than a week not until mid this week. Yeah, those days are just confusing, like what is even happening? My model just couldn’t learn anything at all. This is not just my model, almost everything just didn’t work. Can you imagine days ago, I reached my peak. Then, get stuck in this bottleneck for a week as a result…
My games were always losing and my coffees tasted just bad. In the past, I would start questioning myself. However, it is different now. I don’t see them as bad things now, they are just funny. I don’t want to be a great programmer, trader or barista anymore. I just want to be a funny programmer, funny trader and funny barista. We should just laugh when things don’t go as expected because that’s the way to go. Things never go as expected — like when everything breaks during a DEMO!
You know, the past week was pretty fun. I cannot win a game, cannot program things, cannot trade properly, can’t make good coffee, but… being funny I have no bottleneck at all, and this is just so funny!! I see, I am finally insane now. Am I still a human or just some rubbish artificial intelligence?
Now, I know my goals for 2025 finally. In the past ten years and more, I never achieved what I wanted to do for a new year. Right? If I want to finally achieve what I want to do, I have to not do what I want to accomplish.
Yes, my goal for 2025 is failing all my goals.
Am I just a genius? After a whole decade, I found a way to finally have an achievable goal, by not achieving anything at all. Just like how I counter-trade myself. By no means, I am just not doing anything, instead, I will do a lot, but it is fine to fail. I either fail my goal by achieving my goals or achieve my goal by failing my goals. Now, I won’t be disappointed in myself anymore.
In the end, nothing matters. After a millennium, everything will fade away. All our memories and achievements are gone except truly talented ones, what matters for an average person like me is to not worry about anything. I often try many things, but in the end, I will fail. Even if I know I will fail, I will still attempt. If I don’t try, how can I fail? If I don’t fail, how do I know I am very average or bad?
2025, I want to be funnier and happier than ever, whether or not things go great or bad. Life is long enough to try many things, but short enough if not happy.