I am currently a very junior mobile engineer with more than 10 years of programming experience. Interested in mobile app development (both native and hybrid), reverse engineering iOS apps & games, having ramen, stock trading and many other random things using different technologies, but not Web related.
Sometimes, I want to give up all my programming skills for something else. I put too much focus on programming. Instead, I can do something else. Life is never only about one thing. What’s interesting is that my programming isn’t that good, even thought I spent almost half of my entire life on it.
More coming soon… one day…
One day means probably never because I don’t even know who I truly am. I am on a journey to know more about myself, one day maybe I will finally know who I am… until then I don’t know what to put here.
Nov 9th, 2025
Across a decade of chasing freedom through dreams, trading systems, and relentless efforts, I have stumbled through failures, regrets, and crisis that stripped me bare, yet each collapse revealed another hidden part of myself. From the forum’s sudden end in 2013 to the trading losses of 2023, I carried the shadows of obsession and fear, believing I was nothing more than a loser bound to repeat mistakes.
But through my greatest crisis, I found reconciliation — the courage to forgive every past version of myself and to see that failure isn’t the opposite of success, but its foundation.
Now, as I step into my “third life”, I no longer run from the past or cling desperately to dreams. Instead, I seek balance: ambition rooted in meaning, and growth built on genuine relationships.
What once felt like wasted years have become the bedrock of self discovery, proving that even a decade late, reconciliation can still open the door to a brighter, freer future.